a... s a c r i f a t i o n LEADS !

what is it huh?
well,,i know its just all because of myself,,mskipun,,menyalahkan diri sendiri itu g baik.bahkan g boleh..
menyalahkan,,sepenuhnya..

hmmhh,,did i went thru hard times? well maybe if i compares to another,to my friend,,what can i say?shes like more in "any" than me,,but that doenst make me small,i mean.. i duno,,maybe i shud learn something from her,,yepp, I DO! i do learn on how she got a boyfriend WHO she loved already before the boy,how do you felt guys being her at that time?youre lucky, i mean..like..you got what you whan rite?you got someone whom you like!hhahaha what??! i learn that such kinda thing?well not even really working, i mean yeaa all of it needs a proceess,needs time,,
ive just met a boy,yea ive told ya bfore...hmmh hes a quite boy, i cant even make such a attractive thing to him,not at all..
everything need a sacrificion  rite?like the bigger you request of something best,the bigger sacrifice you have to take,/but the point isl,what kind of sacrifice??well you may choose of theres an option,,then what about those who dont have an option of sacrificing something?im not clever,or smart like thoes students who just easy on understanding lessons,very quiet easy without really have to take a big efforts o lessons,,for someone like me??im one of those students who neesd a big effort on understanding lessons,and yea sometimes careless..whata bout the lazy thing?ouugghh everyone shud have felt it rite?welll maybe,the poiyn is justa s easy writing these letters "INTENTION" alias NIAT!yapp!thats it,,if you have an intention on doing something,,you sure get that,its a a formula..but again im one of those students who dont have that big courage on doing thing that they want,,this kind of studnts,,well mreka g bisa dtriakin,i cant..i mean,,it just made me feel sick,its just frustrating me,suckin,feelin like useless,reallly it isl.and actually,they do want to be brave like those yang nriakin mreka,,brave on telling that you CAN do this! they do wnat..but its just BUT !that 3 letters...
kenapa ya aku dipertemukan dngnnya,,someone that id like to be,,she has everything,but i dont wana take,or breal em appart..i just cant,,its just too perfect to see,,,and im always beside her,everywhere,anywhere..i know..maybe i just cant be like her,never ever..the attractive,brave,clever one,,wel it seems like she never cries on something,,feel down,,she do..i told you she do,she do used to feel that guys,im beside someone who gets everything she wanted,everything eve ever wanted to be,,and it sucks me again cz i wanna be thaaatt tooo :"| but again,,i just cant,,im someone who talk much only justwith my clossseeessstt friends,and im still workin on figuring out something that i can use on myself..what??what kinda skill god gave me?what is iiitttttt gossshhh i wanna give uuppppppp,nnoooo! im still young heyyyyy hhahhahaa,,my surroundings just buildin myself up not to be small ;')