galau? kata2 unik made in indonesia ini sangat2 identik dg relationship with his/her girl/boyfriend. iyaa apaa iyaa?
but not for this.on me.
gue..gundah gulana,itu bahasa lawasnya cuy,bahasa nostalgianya #appasih
okay lets just get thru the point.
gue bimbang.nah tuh kata2 lumayan enak ddenger drpda yg td.jadi,so,jadi tuu..so heres the story,
its about my dream.about what i'll becoming to.what do i want.
ive write it before tht i wana be a doctor.i wana take care patients and a lot more.that is my last goal,my last dream till i got here.but in the middle of livin here,my fate told me that i shud take Tkurs for a while bcz they didnt accepted me for Mkurs.fyi,i only have 1invation for Mkurs in that summer.well which means if i took Tkurs for studkol,i wouldnt be able to enroll medizin for college. and that means i cant be like what my dream is,rite? but at that time,i still wont give up.that time was summer semester.so i studied for Tkurs my first semester in summer in Leipzig.and bcause i havent give up my dream on that,im still tryin to enroll for Mkurs for winter semester.so if i take Mkurs for my studkol,i can enroll medizin for college later. that was my plan.untill then i got lots of invitation of the permition to join the test held by each studienkolleg.i got like around 7 invitation test studienkolleg. at that time.my plan was,,if i got at least one Studkol for Mkurs like my wish,, i'll leave my Tkurs here whre ive finished my one semester here,which means i need one more smster again to enroll for college.so yea if i get my Mkurs,i'll leave My Tkurs and start one smster froom the start,from the very beginning again for Mkurs.bcause you see the basic is dfferent btween Mkurs and Tkurs.so you cant just easy continuing the second smster whre the first smster you were in different major.not major,well what do you say that i dntknow. at that time.i felt its okay starting one semester again.lagian kan different major gtu.jdi gpplah repeating one smster lagi if gue dpt Mkurs.im not rushing time thou.its for my future.i'll do whatever it takes to me for gettin Mkurs.
and this 19 august.i need to attend in greifswald for a Mkurs test.we call it aufnahmeprüfung.buut,,i dont know,i just felt like,,i dont need that anymore.
you see,,im fine in Tkurs.i mean,i like studying Tkurs thou.even yea kinda hard.but everything seems hard if you dont work it well.what im tryin to say here is that,,i gave up on my Mkurs.i gave up of bcoming a doctor.i gave up on that. but i know its not the end of everything.its just that ive changed my goal.to be honest is that,ive changed back to my first dream. i know which things that i like,which things that i hate and which things that i need,i guess :)
i feel the comfy too in studying Tkurs. and im not that someone who doest have the next plan for my own future.if i surely take Tkurs,so what major will i take for college? not too hard for me to choose.im pity for those who are hard to choose just bcoz they dont know what they wana be.but be lucky,you felt hard to choose bcz you gota lots of choises you wana take.ive told you bfore that now i choose back my first dream,whre i shud take Tkurs if i wana be "it". what i wana be is..yea i used to dream being like those who work with media things.for communicating,designing web,all about technology.that was my first dream when i was in the 11 grade.but when i was in the 12 grade,i changed,i wanted to be a doctor.i dont feel im fail even. i dont know.i dont feel guilty on myself.i just..im enjoying it.but even yea i do wana learn biology,sme stuffs like that..never mind.God gives me what i need.i do pray for that.just,show me what i need.throw away what i want which is not good for my sake.
and so emmh,,i dont have that fighting power again to enter the next test for Mkurs.but if i do enter,maybe i wont even do it like 100% spiriiittt!!! no. :| but if im lucky they accepted me.well i used to think that i will be much more galau if i got accepted.which means i have to be wise.i must choose which one shud i take.that is tottaly a scary desicion.but then time goes by.untill now.even i hvent done the test yet.im sure.i still choose the Tkurs here.
sumpah gue smpt galauin hal ini.some of my friends are still fighting to get what they want.i dont know.what i know is that i just need to " FOCUS"
that one word dscribe everything. my parents always support me.just my mother,she doesnt want me to take medizin cz its so long,and yeaa a mother doesnt want her child girl not gettin mrried yet or what.its too old thinkin i know lol-______-" whatever i dont really mind that.my father always supports me and he always says stay focus on what you have now.after all,its not a bad idea thou.
and so,.guuyyss,.hellloo youu out theree,.reach your goal.i mean.at least reach your first step and you'll see what you hve to focus on.cz for me,,ive got one :) bismillah :)
we'll be success in our different ways.cz we "are" different :)
hey,today is the last fasting,btw. :D
kämpfeeennn yooyy yg djerrmaann bentar lagi juga buka kok *liatjam masih jam 1 siang lwt* hehehe..
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