so WHY is it WHAT??

sprti yg uda aku ksih tauu before,,ini smua krnaa,,"wawancara"
loh,knpa emg wawancaranya?ada yg salah?salah siapa?iyaaa -___-" salah saya pribadi
so,gu wawancara,without any kinds of brieffings,or anythings.so,when she(si penanya bag.visa) asked me about..well its not about answering math,or biology..its about yourself!myself! what is your aim,when is your first year entering senior high,kinda like that..
aaannddd...somes about what i know about studying in germany,so can be like about the univrsty that id wanna take,what are the subjects,about having a part time there,will you stay here or what after you finished your study,where is your dream of your work place,well she told me to answered excatly like is is said in the site,the univrsty site that you wanna take,,god!! well i used to open that site,but i dont rally mentioned some kinds like when will the second test will be held,what are the details about the subject,,and for me,who wanna take medizin,she asked me "do you know when will they held their practice exams?" godd,well according to the site?? of course i cant lie,well maybe some of you may say,,,heyy its generall that every medizin take their practice exam about in the 3rd year,.or may be 4th yearr?? you see..may be???oowhhhh goshhhh she need the "exactly" one, im not too brave saying "well about 3rd?or 4th??" nooo! she said that she wanted the exaclty one,and like so i cant "lie" aandd i dont have that kind ideas of lying in this kind of situation,no i wouldnt.yeaa i got stucked when she askeds me things about the univrsty,well maybe this doesnt really impact me.cz at the letter that bodschaft gave me,,they dont really notice this.okay and yeaa they asked me about my family,like how many siblings do you have,your fathers work and the salary,yeaa its easy as long as you keep faith.hahahaha.
mmhhmm,,well if youre wondering why am i posting this in lots of english,,id answerd,,i dont know.it just did,and i feel comfrtble writing,telling this in english,,,hhmmh,,you might think that well,maybe bcause mega doesnt want thoseeee,who are indonesian people with a lil english may not really understand this,orr i just wanna share to thosee who really like fluent in english,,noo,,not at all guys,,well maybe if i wrote down in bahasa,,that'll be much more longer i guess,,hhahah i dont know.D

okay lets just get thru,what is the point of my stupidneessss in the intervieww??
first letter said im not serious in takin study in there,and information that i have about the course that i take there,,its too little, so i wrote the caveat down as it was told before,,i said in my letter that i do serious in taking this,because of blablabalablaaa...and i give some applications to convience them,like i gave the pdf print about the medizin in leipzig,the enrollment of m-kurs,when the test will be hold,etc..
theenn like 2 or three weeks letter yaitu tepatnya kemarin senin,,comes a letter again from them which meaanss its a refusement again :( and what are the reason?
thats becauseee,,when they asked me about having a part time job,,and i said yes i wanna take,,and like,whaat??you wanna take part time while you take medizin??thats impossible.you seee,medzin students dont take part time job because its tottaly difficult to do,as you can see that medizin is not an easy major.and most of students that take medzin there,they really dont take,and they 'are' from a rich fam anyway.
well oohh noo,,,i didnt mean to have them think like that,well if i cant divide my time to have a part time,then I WOULD NOT TAKE THAT PART TIME SIR! its just,,just saying,anyway i didnt say that part time is my number one there,why dont you just ask,:why would you take a part time in taking medizin,while your fathers salary is enough for you just to study?" wellll okayy its my faultt anywaayy i didnt say..okay fine i may say that i wanna take part time,BUT im still focus on my medizin,so the main is thatt..having a part time job is not my GOAL.OKAY?! different like my friend's case.well im not goin to tell what happend with her,why was she also rejected.cz i havent done mmy story yet.lol.okay continue,,so,answering "YES" for having a par time job is "BIG WRONG: especially for those who wanna take medizin.(well may be,,if you wanna take the safe place,youd better just say no for having a part time,well may be work in the holiday is maybe fine,you know,like summer holiday??yea,so better just the main is that i come to germany to study,focus on my study,i dont wanna have a part time,well even at last youd do --" okay you got what i mean rite?)
and second,,bcause of my SERTIFICAT! yea my language srtifcate in level a1 is "befriedigung" which means "enough"...so they goes like this "whaat???youve learned deustch since august 2012 and end around JULY(well yea i was interviewed on since when did you start studying deutsch and where,with who,untill when) okay,theyve got me studying deutsch for yea you may say its a long time,and WHAT??end up in having test a1 and got only "enough"???? what a stupid student you are,yea? and like youve planned,you wanna finished your language level till b1 in three month later?and like what month is now?almost SEPTEMBER.(maybe they dont think that now im studying a2) -__-" they suggested me to stop this all,and yea,id better take a major in indonesia,and maybe for the s2,you could visit germany??sounds sweet huh?--____--"
andd yeaa the leter was that long because they also like mmhhmm,,advising me,,yea kind like having medizin there is not easy,you have to reach untill this high marks,every country have one or two seats for each major and a lot more,,
oowhh andd yeaaa aku kecewa sama ini smua,,first,coba kalo aku lebih dpahamkan akan
"kamu mau studi medzin,so dont ever say that you wanna take part time job there,its like killing your self!"
and what i really feel sorry is that my srtfcate,,okay so it was like this,
buat ngpply visa,gu pake srtfkat a1 dlm artian aku ksana msih mau les bahsa lgi smpe b1,well dptin srtfkat itu drmana?g mudah,awalnya mau ikut goethe,but they have their own time in having test.sayangnya wktu gue uda mepet bgt ini.so gue minta bntuan fraunya kakkakku ini yg dbandung itu,yg agent pribadi itu,,to make a srtfcate a1 for me,,well at first she wanted me and nika to study there at least a week thaan do the test.but hell noo,,one week later i must apply and for this week,theres no transportation at all.so frau said okay i'll make srtfkte for you two,but then after applyin,yo two must study to me.okayy deal..well so thats true that she made my score in a1 is "really UP TO HER" godd,,,she only gave us "ENOUGH" ?? nyatanya nih ya..the truthh is when we study there,yea she gave us also some tests,,and she said "trnyata kalian lbih ya dr yg saya kira,kmrn saya kasih cukup itu,blablablaaa,,,hhehehe kalian lebih itu dr itu,," sambil WATADOS gitu ngmongnye (wajah tnpa dosa) wktu itu kita(gu ma nika) yaa rada rada "yee nyepelein kita banget ih" tp yauda lha biasa,dlm artian,g ngti kalo nilai itu ngefekkknyaaaaaa kek tahuuuu dlm pngajuan visa gue! baru tau nilai srtfkat gue itu dprmasalahin,,gue bete tuuhhhh pooll duukk..aduuh frauuuuu! lagian tega amat ngasih kita "CUKUP" bayangkan??! diatasnya tu masih ada "GUT" trus "SEHR GUT"(sngat baik) *ngelusdadaseribukali*
g bisa apa ngasih gut??iya kalo g ngepek gue biarin tuh nilai segitu.tp ini apa.dprntanyakan kepintaran saya dan shingga mmbuat saya gagal bnrkgt ksana ssuai rncana.:'( ya bukannya ngaku emg pinter,ya engga.tp paling enggaklah.lu kan agent,tau dong harusnya paling ga ini srtfkat dpke buat apply minimal brpa nilainya biar g dprmasalahin,,kurang apa gmna duitnya -___-'
apa lagi ya gue dtolaknya,,udah deh itu aja,mnurut gue uda cukup banyak :'(
tp knapa coba alasan2nya g djadiin satu dlm penolakan yg prtama??knpa keraguan anda dlm saya memilih mdzin yg dg srtfkat saya yg nilainya sgtu,yg saya memilih iya untuk part time,,knpa g djelasin dr awal aja??like seeking another failure you know,ya mskipun gw tau emg iya sihh salah gue kmrn bilangnya gitu..
yahh smart dikit dong klo wawancara,bokap aja lngsung,wktu pas aku dtnyain buar part time itu,,trs gue bilang iya,,bokap lngsung kek "waduh kog bilang iya,jngnlah hrusnya.fokus belajar,engga mbak saya g mau part time.titik,sudah" :( iyee pah,,bego ini pasan :"(
apa yahh,,yah gu mikir cuman "iya sapa si yg g pgn dpt duit hsil krja sndiiri?"dlm artian tetep gu menomorsatukan kuliah lah.dlm artian pula,iya kalo dpt.lagiann klo misal nih aku g ngrti klo dsana anak medizin itu g mngkin part time gitu.ya gu g bakalan part time lah!!! bedoi jugee ni,aih.lagian slary papahtuh,cukup g tuh ngbuat aku g part time?? ishh.
okay,soo the intervieww,,is reallly fuckin stupid damn shit "TRAPPING" ! hahahahhaha.be smart guys,-__-"