the year of 2012

at last,,finally we've reached the year of 2012

where many people says there will be a doomsday,or whatever it called before..
till now,when i heard 2012,its all about bad things.i dont know,kinda big accident,disaster,,
but please,this year im going to enter college *amiin* so please no bad things happens for this :(


well talkin bout doomsday,it reminds me of death.gosshh,,,who the hell dont wanna go to heaven?
i have religion.i love it. i believe it.#truely


*curcol*
klo inget death,,what just comes out of my mind is that dark,cold,hhmmh,,the most im afraid is being along :'(
well we all gonna have to do this.its the part of the game.its the part of the rule.rite?
well its not like being alone in our own room r even bathroom when we have shower.Noo!completely different!
actually,not that dark and cold if we pray and read the holy qur an most of days..but yea,,
bad habbit just that hard to remove which we called it as "'lazy"
well what im tryin to say is that..
okay,just imagining...when i heard someone died for example i heard just today, i immediately think.
"omg,,what happens if it goes to me?i mean,i havent prepared yet.! i must be hit by a big stick or whatever t called by the angel.it must be hurt for sure.
and the other is that,,being ALONE.i hate loneliness.but we really have to face it SOMEDAY! we dont know when,so then for sure we gotta prepare. PREPARE? 
the trueth is that,,lemme say that actually this is like my heart says"i just feel not ready for really really what is that called? i mean,,kinda tawaduk,and a lot.i just cant imagine how it feel to be seperated from the one we love. 
the one we love?well,one of them shud be Allah of course,the One who made us rite?but,,yeah you know all what im tryn to say,:| seperated from FAMILY?!!!please,,im just not ready to face that.i want to be GATHERED ALLLLL !everyone that i loved be TOGETHER,please God,, yea i know its impossible.
but theres one impossible thing,,"the one you love,people that you love,,you all can GATHER and TOGETHER for ONCE more..in heaven when our SINS are gone.so yea it depends to our own personality"
but what i really want,well every one especially moslem teenagers want to have feelings like this
"already really touched by the holy qur an,wearing the proper veil,what on their mind is like 90% about how to go to heaven with family,and the rest percent is like seeking money by having a job,or study at classes seriously,,and alot kinda like that,"
and whats on my mind is,,
"hey!!pleasee all...im still teenange OKAY? i want what i must have at teenage age.what are they?study*ofcourse* musics,boyfriend,anyyyythiingg about DUNIAWI. goshh.and i just feel like some kinda unfair. i mean,its lucky for those who already married,got jod and paid,,they can just focus on one.tryin to get the RIDHO from Allah.." :D well yea thats my bad.


*god,please give me a light
a bright light even one but can lead me to you way*
*god,give me strength to face the world
*world thats getting worsts as You says*
*god,save me and all the ones i loved from Your Hell*
*teach us to you good and bright way
*the way to your ENTERNAL HEAVEN*
------Amiinn Amiin Yaa Rabbal Alamin-------